Michael Jackson makes it into this post somehow...

Retrieval went well yesterday!  After about an hour of waiting past when we were supposed to be getting the show on the road they finally called me back.  The worst part of it all was the stupid IV...I believe I got the world's worst nurse for this....ouch!  My nerves were all over the place and I was STARVING, not a good combination!  And then they walk me back to the surgical room and I see this giant surgical bed with two huge stirrups to place my feet up in the air...I about threw up my heart!  But within minutes of laying down I was out and it seemed like minutes later I was waking up hearing the surgical nurse telling the recovery nurse what meds I was on for the procedure, and she mentioned Propofol.  Seeing as how I act like I'm wasted when I'm waking up from anesthesia, I say the first thing that comes to mind; "Isn't that what Michael Jackson died from?"...the nurse laughed at me and said, 'yesss'...and I passed out again.  Lovely. 

The pain wasn't too horrible, just felt like suuuuper bad menstrual cramps all day (but they gave me morphine in the hospital, best part about all of this!)  Later that day one of my best friends, who's a nurse, came over to give me my first progesterone shot.  I was so scared for this since it's a much bigger needle than I've been handling lately, it goes a lot deeper, and the medicine is in oil...once again, not a good combination!  But she's amazing and I didn't even feel it go in...but now my hip hurts so bad I'm wobbling around like a little old lady!

So I just got the all-important phone call from one of the nurses with our embryo update.  They were able to retrieve 10 eggs, 6 were mature, and 5 fertilized and are growing.  Five...we have five babies growing in a dish!  Soooo weird.  It feels kind of nice to not have to worry about being responsible for them for another few days, they're all in the hands of the embryologists, the first of their many babysitters, I'm sure.  We go in Monday to have two of the five implanted, and then they'll freeze three of them for our future rounds (if needed). 

As if you'd expect anything less out of me, my obsession with baby thoughts has become nothing but stronger every day.  I woke up the other night to go to the bathroom around 2am.  I was dreaming about something non-baby related, but my first thought (you know how you're still kind of in dream land when you get up like that?), was picturing my future conversation with my OB asking if we had twins naturally or through IVF.  I'm loosing it!  My husband is beyond convinced we're having twins, the eternal optimist that he is.  I'm glad that he's there to counteract my negativity.  It's hard to think positively about all of this when so far, nothing has been successful.  But then again, it's hard to imagine why this wouldn't work.  There are a million scenarios to consider.  For example, my dad works for an OB/GYN and she has a patient right now who had both of her IVF embryo's 'take', and one split naturally, so she's having triplets and two of them are identical...could you imagine?!?! 

At the same time it's really hard to not get pumped up about this and expect/want the best.  I went into BuyBuyBaby the other day with some girlfriends (if you've never heard of it, it's a Bed Bath & Beyond, but ALL baby stuff...a deathtrap for an infertile woman).  I couldn't help but pass up all the nursery stuff and want to pick stuff out.  I secretly (well not anymore!) go online and google 'how to decorate a nursery for girl/boy twins'.  I know, I know...I'm not even pregnant yet, but this is coming from the girl who was trying on wedding dresses before my husband proposed to me! I'm a planner...what can I say?!  ;)

Well, for now it's just wait until Monday morning, and then bed rest until Thursday morning.  We go in on May 2nd for our pregnancy test.  May 2nd will be the longest day of my life, for sure.  After Monday think 'sticky baby thoughts' for me and my husband, please! :)  Thank you all for your support though all of this as well, we really appreciate it!  What wonderful friends and family we have!  ...Now those of you that are doctors or pharmacists...could you look into getting me a refund on 10+ years of birth control that I apparently never needed?! ;)