Drum Roll Please......

I haven't been able to sleep lately; surprise, surprise, but last night I was actually able to get some solid z's.  I was having a crazy vivid nightmare (not about vampires as one might think!) so when I woke up I made myself stay awake so I didn't fall back into it...looking back, reading news updates about Osama Bin Laden probably didn't help with falling back asleep peacefully!  When I finally did conk back out I had a dream that I dug through my bathroom trash and found that useless pregnancy test from a week or so ago.  I re-peed on it and it turned...positive!  I woke up pretty soon after that and just knew I was pregnant.  I haven't had any 'feelings' like that this whole two weeks, actually quite the opposite. I figured there was no way we'd get lucky enough for this to take the first time. 

I woke up this morning almost sick to my stomach with anxiety.  Every time I thought about getting that phone call after I went in for the blood test my stomach just dropped.  The nurses at the office commented multiple times about how pale I looked (I told them I'm always this pasty, so not to worry), but I think they still thought I might follow suit with my husband and pass out, as they were asking me questions to keep me distracted as the needle went in...I love my nurses :)  They said they'd call me as soon as they got the results; just a few hours....which felt like DAYS!

I kept myself occupied with a girlfriend of mine after the appointment, as I knew I'd go insane if I just went home and did nothing (this might have been a great opportunity for my house to be cleaned though!).  We were at lunch when I got 'the' phone call.  I think my nurse enjoyed teasing me a little bit with, "Hi Jade, this is Carla....with the doctor's office....I have your test results.....(very long pause, or so it seemed!)....you're pregnant!"  With a mouth-full of french fries, I immediately starting crying and semi-hyperventilating.  Carla told me that I could call her back later because I was probably going to forget everything she was about to tell me with the details regarding my levels and appointments. She was right...I called back about an hour later!

So I'm 4 weeks along, 5 weeks on Friday the 6th!  The math on that doesn't make much sense to me, but I'm trusting the doctors know what they're talking about!  So that puts our due date at January 6th.  We'll find out if we're having one or two sometime next week hopefully, once they do the first ultrasound, and then we'll hear the heartbeat(s) the following week!  A possible clue to there being two:  my hcg levels are pretty darn high; 283.  My nurse told me when she was pregnant with her son her levels were 38.  So I asked if that was a predictor to twins or not, and she said it's possible, but she's seen women with high levels have a single as well.  But...my crazy 're-pee-on-an-old-pregnancy-test' dream last night must have included a pregnancy test from the future, because it showed 2 positive lines, and in my dream that meant it was twins...so we'll see!  Maybe Adam should head over to a casino in the near future ;)

Thank you all again for the support and kind words on here and my facebook wall!  I knew I had great friends and family, but you've all proven yourself to be quite an amazing bunch!  Adam and I really appreciate it and love you all dearly!  I suppose I'll be changing the name of this blog soon, as I seemingly beat infertility...so yeah....Screw you, infertility...I WON!! :)