All because two people fell in love...and had good insurance.

Monday, June 20, 2011

Worry, worry, worry...and worry some more!


Talk about 'pregnancy brain'!  I have forgotten to update this in almost 2 weeks...oops!  Honestly though, there's not much new going on.  I'm still having the same 'wonderful' symptoms I was last time I wrote, and honestly, I think the nausea is getting worse :-/  I am definitely tired ALL the time, and still constipated (I think that is the worst of them all!).  I have started to show though, so that's fun!  I'm still in that 'is she pregnant, or just fat?' stage though, so I'm ready to get over that hump!  I had to go shopping for maternity pants since none of my regular pants fit me anymore!  I love reasons to go shopping (not that I really needed any before!).

I've also discovered that parties aren't as much fun as they used to be!  We had some friends over for a cookout this past weekend and I kept up with the fun for about two hours.  I just wasn't getting as much fun out of my water as they were out of their beverages!  But, I think a baby is well worth skipping 9 months of boozin', so I'll more than willing to deal with my drunk friends! ;-)

So the last time I updated I was 9 weeks, and by this upcoming Friday (24th) I'll be 12 weeks...wooohoo!!  I honestly thought when all this started I wouldn't be seeing this week.  I don't know if it's because of the hard work it took to get here, but I just didn't think it'd happen and 'stick'.  I'm still catching myself referring to the baby in terms of 'if' rather than 'when' (only in my head, not in conversations...that'd be kind of weird I suppose; "If the baby is born..."...yeah.), so I'm not totally over that hump of worry.  But I don't think I honestly ever will be.  My mother had a pretty normal pregnancy when I was in third grade (other than being very, very sick all 9 months), and she found out she lost him on the due date.  So until I am holding that baby in my arms, nothing is guaranteed (this is also part of the reason I told everyone I knew that we were pregnant withing hours of getting the doctor's call confirming it; reaching 12 weeks doesn't really mean much to me because I know from person experience you're not 'out of the woods' then).  And even after he/she is born I'll be worrying about him/her reaching all their developmental milestones and if they don't, I'll convince myself they have some obscure disease or syndrome. I just recently took a course to get my Special Education endorsement (I'm an elementary teacher, in case you didn't know that!), and parts of the course were about syndromes and diseases that don't appear for years, or something that happens beyond your control because it's genetic.  I'm now freaking out about all the genetic testing that will be coming up in my next few appointments because of this.  I know it's super rare for things like that to happen, and the majority of babies are born happy and healthy, but I'm sure the parents of those children with rare conditions didn't think it would happen to them either.  Ugh...this parenting thing is scary stuff!

Anyways, let's move on to the food comparisons that I've missed! :-)
   
With bones and cartilage starting to form and vital organs beginning to function, baby is making major progress. Body length will almost double in the next three weeks, and arm joints are now working. (Soon, legs will too.)



Your fetus currently enjoys a 1:1 ratio between body and head, and has skin so transparent that blood vessels show right through. But, fingers and toes are no longer webbed, and hair follicles, tooth buds and nail beds are forming -- setting up a significantly more attractive future.




As you move into the second trimester, baby shifts into the growth and maturation stage. After weeks in the critical development stage, almost all of baby's systems are fully formed.





The lime reminds me of the party we had this weekend - as I was getting my water out of the fridge one of my friends was grabbing a lime for their beer, and I blurted out, "That's how big the baby is this week!"...everyone kind of looked at me like, "oooo...ok".  Guess they're not as excited as I am about my little lime! ;-)







Tuesday, June 7, 2011

No more nausea = bring on the cravings!



This week...I feel like a new person!  I finally got relief from the nausea that was hanging around me all day long, every day.  At my last appointment with the IVF clinic (so sad to leave them), I asked the nurse practitioner about the anit-nausea meds and she said since I wasn't barfing I couldn't get it.  I was so mad!  I felt like sticking my finger down my throat right there in the office and saying, 'so...can I now?!'.  I was released from them to start seeing my OB that same week and I thought I'd try another doctor for the meds - I kind of felt like one of those people hopping from doc to doc asking for pain meds...eek!  So as the doc is about to walk out of the room after seeing me I squeeze in, 'umm...is there anything I can take the nausea, it's getting really bad, and I feel horrible ALL THE TIME now.'  She responds immediately, "Oh yeah, sure!  I'll write you a prescription for Zofran, no problem!"  HALLELUJAH!!!  So it pays to ask a 2nd time ladies!

So as I mentioned above, I'm no longer seeing the docs and nurses at the IVF clinic.  I wish I could stay with them the whole time, but I guess it's only their job to get me knocked up and then they ditch me...sounds like a horrible loser-boyfriend if you ask me! ;)  Just kidding ladies, I love you all and will miss you!  If anyone in the Chicago area is looking for fertility help and don't know where to start, I can't stress enough that Chicago IVF is the way to go.  The entire staff of doctors, nurses, techs, and receptionists, are amazing and caring people.  We literally wouldn't be having a baby without them!

My new OB office is HORRIBLE and I think that makes me miss everyone at Chicago IVF even more.  I waited over 2 hours for my first appointment and the doctor saw me for about 3 minutes.  Our insurance is changing in August though, so I'm changing doctors the second that kicks in!  So I only have to see this doctor one more time.  It's kind of weird that I'm only having doctor appointments once a month now since I was having them weekly with CIVF!  I'll definitely miss all those ultrasounds and getting to see our lil' peanut so often.  I did get to have an ultrasound this past week though since I had some more spotting (this is getting really old, let me tell you!).  I actually got to see the lil' peanut move this time!!  I was watching the screen and it lifted up it's head and kicked one of it's tiny little feet!!!  I think that made it more real for me than hearing the heartbeat honestly.


The lil' peanut lost it's tail this week and you can see the beginning of little feet!  And I'm pretty sure you can see fingers in this one!  I only counted four, but I'm telling myself they're still too small to count, or one is hiding! ;)  

Oh, and the cravings have kicked in!  Tapioca pudding is ranking in at the #1 craving so far.  But it has to be the Jewel brand...haha, who knows.  I'm eating a giant tub of it in a few days.  I actually got upset yesterday at the store when I went to buy two tubs of it and they only had one left!  Who is buying all the tapioca pudding...and store-brand at that?!  Oh, and peanut-butter-chocolate shakes (from Oberweis) are the #2 craving.  MMmmm...that sounds so good right now. I might have Adam make a pit-stop on his way home from work today!  ;) 

Food of the week.....

                                    
Your little embryo has now officially graduated to fetus-hood. Adding to the excitement, a Doppler ultrasound device might be able to pick up the beating heart. With basic physical structures in place and increasingly distinct facial features, baby is kind of starting to look like... well... a baby!